Over Eleven Years Single

I have been single for over eleven years and you hit a point where you give in looking, quit the stupid dating sites and just forget about the fact that you are one of the 30 – 40 percent of men that have never been married by the age of 40.(The data isn’t very clear.) Been single for over 11 years is like someone telling me – sorry me, women just don’t like you because you are too nice a person. That’s how it feels - To be a good honest person leaves you single.

The Fresh Hope Given To Me In November 2022

I appeared to be getting some attention from a lady who worked where I worked, I didn’t really know her much but her attention/ looks/ questions from her friends was enough to give me some hope that finally someone might want me. I really believed that she was perhaps going to make a move for me. I was going through a bad time and my mother was dying of cancer and I got it in my head that mum would have been so happy if I was with someone before she died. I mean she was truly beautiful, always seemed so lovely and nice, she sounded so sweet and seemed like such an angel. I always thought with the time I had known her that she was married so I figured maybe she wasn’t now or something. I never even try to get close to married women – I did that a lot of years ago with a lady called Sharon and we were so, so close but she was committed to her husband and it certainly put me off married women with all the feelings and that. I would give her a lift home from work and we spend a lot of time together just talking and the feelings grew and grew to the point that I didn’t want her to leave me and get out the car. It was not just me either, we were very good together and she genuinely cared about me.

Anyway back to 2022 and yeah I got my hopes up and I waited for her to do something and yet that day never arrived. I found out that she was married and all my hopes were killed. I had stupidly got my hopes so much up and when I realised she wasn’t actually interested in me I was upset. I mean single for long and someone finally showing an interest in me when I had given up and then it turns out she is happily married and has no real interest in me. I had painted this crazy picture of her and I happy holding hands and in love spending time with my dying mother with my mum been so happy for me knowing that I would be with someone good when she died. I know mum would have liked her where she didn’t like the other two women I had had longer relationships with. So my hopes of my mother been happy before she died knowing that I was with someone good were killed and yeah I did feel all a bit stupid, hurt and upset. Looking back yeah I should have spoken to her instead of waiting and found out sooner if she was married or not but I was going through a really rough time with caring for my mum and trying to keep my job. So yeah she was that women that I wanted to be my special one, my only special one and yet instead of my dreams coming true I was firmly put back down to earth and on the path of single foreverness.

Nobody Since November 2022

So since November 2022 I have not found anyone else who could remotely compare to the lady that had given me hope. Other women had showed an interest in me too but they were all stupid, one in particular was crazy and wore loads of over the top makeup and thought that I loved her and that she was one of my fantasy characters – my Dream Maker character and yet she was more of a Nightmare Maker rather than a dream maker. I used to get on a tiny bit with her and had a 24 hours crush on her but then I realised how stupid and dumb she was and when I learnt more about her I realised that she was just some dirty women who talks randomly about sex toys and lets guys she is not with touch her up and flirts with most of the guys – someone I would not want be with ever. The lady from November 2022 is a true lady and has class and I do not know anyone else as beautiful and lovely as her in the whole world. See the lady who I mistakenly thought liked me in November 2022 kind of set a high standard for me and to be honest two years and five months later I have not met anyone who could compare to her and to be honest after I realised the women from November 2022 didn’t actually want me I gave up again despite people thinking otherwise. Its funny how people spread rubbish and lies around without thinking about the facts. All I wanted was that one women and yet that failed so I never got my hopes up again in finding anyone after that.

The Future

Today I don’t want to find anyone and I am happy with my single life. Single life has its advantages and I could be in a lot worse position if I got together with the wrong person. I have no plans to look for anyone else, I don’t do dating sites or social media and I am happy to have my own space and life. Over Eleven years single in only an estimate as I don’t like keep track because that would be pointless. I stopped smoking a long time ago but I cant even remember how long as It was best I didn’t put figures on it. Life rock n rolls and moves on and I don’t need to keep track of how long I have been single for as its now just part of who I am.